Sunday, August 15, 2010
Well, this is an interesting journey. I haven't had much trouble with the booze or caffeine. Sugar seems to be the monkey on my back. I have been drinking a ton of water but the food and exercise have kind of died. I have two weeks till my reunion (Aug 28) so I am going to redouble my efforts in these last two weeks. In retrospect, it might have been a little psychotic to drop everything all at once. Kind of like a smoker quiting smoking while also starting a diet while also training for a marathon. It's a little unrealistic. However, I do believe I have kicked my caffeine habit. Alcohol was never a big issue but it's nice to know I don't need it. Sugar is like my heroin. That's what I'm going to concentrate on in the next two weeks as well as the exercise. All in all, this has been a very interesting experiment. We all know that we prefer things but do we really know how much we need those things. I am hoping to unburden myself if I can from a few of those things. So in conclusion, so far, I have been successful in the alcohol and caffeine department, not to successful in the sugar and exercise department. All things considered, I'm OK with that.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Okay, last week was a bad one. I strayed from "perfection" on thursday, and again on saturday night. But sunday morning, I recommitted to the project and have been good ever since. To help keep me on the straight and narrow, I did a big shopping excursion to Costco, and now I have a fridge full of convenient, healthy food.
If I can just get through the next two weeks without slipping up again...
Friday, August 6, 2010
One of the things I didn't expect from this ... project? experiment? whatever was an insight into my character. I was having a bad week. A very, very bad week. It was all self-generated, as well, which was interesting.
You see, I was in a meeting on Wednesday morning, and I experienced a moment of clarity. I realized that in almost every way, I am worse off in terms of my career than I have been in over ten years. Granted, the one exception to that is that I'm making more money now, but in terms of progression, growth, and having a career path, I am completely stagnant with little to no hope of that situation changing in the foreseeable future.
Needless to say, this realization depressed me much more than I care to admit, and I have been struggling with that depression ever since. Last night, I really couldn't handle it, and ended up heading to the beer and wine store and purchasing both.
This led to the further realization that I lack coping skills and use alcohol as a crutch.
Monday, August 2, 2010
I'm 1/4 of the way through and I have to say it's getting easier. I thought I would die last week from caffeine and sugar withdrawal but it seems I didn't. What I have discovered is that I don't need them. I think I was mostly using them as filler like a smoker wastes time smoking. And to make it worse, I was conditioning myself to always be consuming something. I am hoping that by the end of this I will not only have kicked my coffee and pop habit but also the need to consume.
I have made a few mistakes (we can call them accidental cheats: ordered a diet coke and lime at a pub without thinking, never knew decaffeinated coffee still has some caffeine and drank diet Lipton Green Tea without checking, it does have a little caffeine as well). Now that I know this, I will avoid those items and be more diligent in the future. I think I've been eating too much fruit as well. Now, fruit is not refined sugar but in excess it kind of defeats the point of not having sugar.
Here is a question I am wrestling with: Should I drink 0 caffeine pop like Fresca, Diet Sprite and Diet Root Beer? They don't have any caffeine naturally but I'm trying to kick my pop habit. Just substituting no caffeine pop for regular pop won't help me get out of that habit. I'm torn I guess. On one hand it would be nice to have a nice cold pop after work but then I will have less water. I think for the sake of this challenge I will say no, then revisit the idea later.
This week is a big week for exercise (so far, a little lacking). I am doing something almost every day between running, tennis and circuit training. I think if I can get the lined up I will be very ahead of the game. It's funny, I really love athletics but I get in this lazy state where I don't want to do the preparation for it. Once I am out there, I really love it. I think I need structure. I think I will make a calendar where I map out what I will do one what days, that way it's less random and hodge podge. Ok, I don't know if anyone is reading this other than Lara and myself but here I am workin it anyway. Cheers
Saturday, July 31, 2010
I cheated today. After four days of headaches in increasing severity, that Tylenol and ibuprofin could only make a dent in, I caved in and had a coffee. A double espresso, actually, and my headache disappeared in less than an hour.
I've quit coffee cold turkey before, but the withdrawal has never been this bad, or lasted this long. Coffee is a cruel mistress, and I am quite clearly her bitch.
But it was a momentary lapse, and I will be back to the cold turkey approach from now on.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
The last couple of days have been a bit rough. Not because of the diet, but the lack of coffee and pop is killing me. Just like Jennifer, I'm tired all the time, and starting to get the caffeine withdrawal headache. Which, no doubt, makes me an utter joy to be around.
Thank the FSM that I can work from home two days a week. I can be as bitchy as I want to be today without affecting anyone else. Except my cats, of course, but they're very forgiving.
I do feel a sense of accomplishment for having biked to and from work on monday and wednesday. going from riding around the seawall once every couple of weeks to biking 40 kilometers in the last three days is quite an improvement. Well, to be fair, I probably biked 39 kilometers and walked 1 kilometer with my bike. That Lion's Gate Bridge is brutal. The rest of the commute is no problem, but that bridge kills me.
It does feel good to come down the other side of the bridge, though. Especially coming home, since it's coming through Stanley Park, and I can coast along, smelling the trees. And the view from the top of the bridge is fantastic.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Well, I expected headaches, there have been some mild ones, but not insane tiredness. I didn't know that pop/coffee/sugar were so powerful. I could sleep all day. I am zombiing my way through work, getting about half the amount of work done. I want my stimulants dammit! I am also finding that I want to eat more. Now all the food has been super good food but those coffees and pops served the purpose of snacks between meals. Now I want an actual snack. I'm sure this will not last forever. I think tonight I will try: working out, showering and then to bed by 10pm. That way I will hopefully not be crazy tired again tomorrow...hopefully!